anatomy, baby

My trapezius is tight again.

I really should go to bed, that sometimes helps. But my head is pounding and my neck has eight thousand kinks; my trapezius is tight and full of knots. And even though I'll feel (somewhat) better in the morning, getting to sleep is a pain (pun intended) because of the peronious tertious in my right foot.

My roommates are all taking anatomy. Pain isn't so painful when you can identify its location.

every venture has a particle of risk

I am an indecisive person.

And yet, deep down, I do know what I want in life. I want to learn as much as I can. I want to affect the world in some way; size is irrelevant. I want to write. I want to really live -- take chances, be brave. Risks, fears, adventures. I want to have a family. I want to see and do Important Things. I want to learn how to be totally comfortable with me.

I am writing this because I need to learn how to write. I have been encouraged by some great people, people who believe in my ability to be more than mediocre. So, I am taking their encouragement and applying it. I had the amazing opportunity to hear David Sanger, the New York Times' chief Washington correspondent, speak about his work for the Times today, and when asked how he improved his writing he said, "Repetition. The only way to do it right is do to it a lot." He's right, of course. This is my repetition.

More than that, though, I'm writing this for me.